bisexual? but c'ya in a m-f relationship for mom and dad?

[frogjumper]

for years i told myself that if i was married to a man mom and dad would never suspect anything. my father left the home at when i was young,my mother raised us 11 children alone. i was the #10 child. and the only 1 of 5 girls that was raised as a boy. hair cuts,clothing,shoes,voice,ETC. as all boys were expected to behave by age 12 or 13yrs old, i asked a girl if she would be my girlfriend. she said no,and ran away. the rest is painful.
i'm in my late 30's and tired of hiding. i'm not shy all the time,and i definitely don't hold back from the truth. but what does bother me is yes we all have signed up on this site,and yea we play by society's rules again! we hide behind or screens,say we're looking for someone special. but we have to be quaint,and play the game.
i'm tired of 20yrs of dating services,bar scenes and shopping for the perfect lady. no matter what my ole man likes. i like many other women are looking for someone that is easy to relate to!!!!!
so why hide lets talk. thx (removed)

fantasies,fetishes,and fabulous fun, forget the 3"R"s