Showgirl101, 42

Finally ready to fully embrace my bisexuality! I've always known I was definitely bisexual, always. I actually find women so much more attractive than men. In an ideal world (in my head) I'd have a woman over a man any day I think (If I had the guts to have the experience!). In my life, I have stuck with the "norm" and had relationships with men. Namely my marriage to my ex-husband, who I was with for almost 10 years ... we split up a few moths ago. I had a couple of amazing, admittedly, mostly chemically induced experiences with women I have always fantasised about being with women, they turn me on, they are so much more attractive than men! As I said, I have recently split from my husband, and I feel I am now ready to try & embrace the side of me I always thought I had to keep hidden, the side I always imagined when we were together, I always fantasised I was with a beautiful woman when I was with my Husband. When he went down on me, the only way I could ever come, was if I imagined a beautiful, dark haired woman was down there, not him! And I have always fantasised like hell about strap-ons ... omg my ultimate fantasy and what got me through some S-- sessions with men lol! I am scared s---less and terrified, no idea where to start, I suppose I am a total virgin to this kind of scene, which is why I've come here ... for hopefully some help, support, advice & hopefully fun! And maybe to try and build up some confidence in myself and my body, after giving birth to twins a year ago, it ain't so hot so I have zero confidence in myself and my body ... but maybe someone out there could even just chat to me, or let me know they feel the same as me (i.e. terrified, excited, no confidence, terrible post-childbirth body, wanting to explore new things, needs ... like-minded peeps!) But anyway ... Life is too short and it's time to embrace what I always tried to hide! I would dearly love to be with a woman properly and completely!